25lines, redux

i think the worst part of me is hitting that state in which i can’t concentrate. i’m not yet convinced that i actually can’t concentrate, maybe i’m just telling myself that. but it feels like it’s hard to focus on any one thing, and keep it going. like anything worthwhile is simply not within my [...]

when you’re sick, you begin to appreciate the social tapestry that lies in place to ensure you’re not alone. provided, of course, that you’re not cutting through all of that in your life. but it’s one of the hardest challenges, when one is feeling oh-so-very soft. i used to cheat – when i was sick, [...]

Unconscious flow, triggered physiological responses from bio chemical firings within inducing dulled thought and action in a hive of people, killing off brainwaves like ants, the token refrain of breaktime unburnout the accepted exit from personal responsibility. Entitlement, vile and ever present, shooing away all wonderment while we sponge up soak up all self absorption [...]

i am cursed. i want to do too many things, and thus i do nothing. it’s a stupid state, i’m a sloghead for submitting to the tension in every which direction. there are many faces, many masks, and none will ever win, but in my heart i am each one. i am a poet. i [...]

thought of this email the other day. posting publicly finally. —— To give everyone a quick summary – my work visa expired yesterday, and as such I had to stop working today, until the new visa comes in. This left me feeling energized, excited, very happy about days off to pursue what I want to [...]

… that is all.

It’s easy, or at least preferable, to have a suitable routine. Many people seem to prefer the known and nearly predictable. Others want nothing of the sort and choose to live differently. Keeping busy makes it easy to ignore tomorrow. Small circles. Distractions abound. Other people are neccesarily distractions. Often encouraging, or discouraging. For many [...]

at some point i started playing with CRM software to track my social relationships. to save you a wikipedia search, CRM stands for Customer Relationship Management. it’s what sales people (who aren’t michael scott) use to remember the little details about [potential] customers and their lives, etc. it’s supposed to help people retain the semblance [...]

i started writing here for myself. i wrote because i wanted to write, and i didn’t particularly care who read / what they read / if people even read at all. i wrote because i wanted to write better, and you write better by writing. but then at some point, i started to grasp the [...]

wrapping up senior year of post-college. im in the same place i was 4 years ago, but its different. some would say i should have taken the productive job the first time around, spent time at work that i enjoyed, been productive in an enriching environment like i feel like i am doing now. but [...]