25lines, redux

been trying to figure out what it is i want to do not even on a global sense like usual, but in an every day sense. i estimate i get about 5 hours of free time a day, tops – and i want to max that out. at least ideal schedule is like 7 hours [...]

all day when working other peoples work eyes can barely stay alive, drooping always down but as soon as you’re out, with the four musketeers things are good again, and we become free awakened and ready to enjoy my hours away from the funding activities that i do for others i do to get started [...]

japanese school girl happy, jumping, bending both calves back and in the air should be a good week, after tomorrow is done. friday radio-head and her two gal pals come to visitez-le moi. i don’t know what we’re going to do, but i’m looking forward to it. if they want to go drinking, i guess [...]

funny how people can distill a movie into a 1 or 2 minute montage resequencing clip. and you know a movie will be kinda bad if all the trailer clips show up in the first 10 minutes. but some other trailers are art (Comedian) and others hit the right spot – like garden state. i [...]

sometimes things are good sometimes things are bad and that’s just the way my brain seems to work i guess that’s ok but what i really wish i could know is how things will turn out in the end that’s all we ever wait for, innit?

half awake and half asleep at the same time. colours are dull and grey and i stay inside, with the blinds pulled. pay day comes and whoopdiedoo i just pay my bills and be done with it. melancholy drips all over my face as i wash myself in it, today is a grey day. sugar [...]

as i ate my pizza and tossed the crust. i wondered about the waste because i know you couldn’t give that crust to people here, there’s a matter of pride. already chewed food is gross. but i don’t think it’s universal. somehow, i wonder, and somehow i know that there are places where there is [...]

pressure behind the eyes makes me wince and close and clear the dirty layer that covers it proteins that people study day and night always for what purpose? i know none and good friends are important every day it seems and it’s tough to keep on the ball otherwise i should realize the differences between [...]

ok lets try this some more. 1. maintenance eating bathrooming healing sleeping 2. stimulation touching smelling tasting listening in general watching in general 3. interacting playing with things playing with others touching things touching others choosing words choosing clothes 4. absorbing reading stuff watching stuff listening to stuff learning 5. creating babies writing painting music [...]

it’s a beastiful thing when garbage from the past catches up with you. in this case, no metaphor, actualy physical deliverables. trash is trash, and i guess should become it but everything we let go of is still a connection to the past in every which way part of our memory box media and audio [...]

refuge there comes a time when we have to decide what it is that we’re looking for. what exactly it is that we chase and this in itself is often a difficult task either to choose or to realize and accept. if i am going to be productive, if i’m going to make things work, [...]

gah. so much pain. no solution, gotta keep the phone closer. keep it on, keep it stable. thinner, closer, cyborg self, jacked into the cell network 24/7 working the 9 to 5 visions of my film when i walk down the alleyway cars swinging by driving by knowing why i walk down the street to [...]

it’s funny to think about the ways we might be wired in the wetware. what’s good and bad and what we like or don’t. social dominance versus deference and the things we do to keep on top or put others down. surface over substance? i think surface complements substance, but does not replace. but then, [...]

drudgery every day, early mornings for long stretches testing morale boost every day, work every day, push it to the limit, misc. crap that was once interesting but packaged not nicely. media is mportant and how we interact and interface is important. time time time and those who have lots of it can’t imagine those [...]

am in the place, in normal operating conditions (ie, living alone) it’s nice to have quiet. sometimes you really want to feel the warmth of another person nearby – just presence. but i’ve felt that non-stop for a couple months now. sometimes the coldness of a dark and empty place is most relaxing. it’s nice [...]